Hi.. I'm Emily! Enough said.
Can you taste the fury of the ones you wronged?
Are you blind to hearts you break?
As you tear yourself apart.
Is losing your self control for a night worth
a son never knowing a father.
You say you’re doing better,
but you keep repeating the mistakes followed by new apologies.
There’s a taste of heaven and hell that make up life.
It’s like a test to determine where we belong.
I’m not sure whether I’m passing or failing.
Cause I can’t help from tasting dirt from my clumsy attempts to fly.
There’s a blessing in falling apart,
and there’s pain standing back up.
Lately there’s an ache with every beat,
and every day seems to drag by like a blurry dream.
It’s getting hard to come clean,
cause I’m not sure what I’ve done.
I just want to fly,
but I keep tasting dirt.
I keep feeling like I’m failing a test on living.
It’s hard to imagine that you’re leaving,
and it kills me that this could be the last time you could hold me.
We promise to keep in touch,
but will you remember me?
Cause there’s only so much texts can do.
As time passes longer than the miles between.
I seem to be forgetting your face,
but I remember the love we had at the mention of your name.
I’m scared the smiles, our laughter, and the joy we experienced will fade from our memories.
Cause I never want to forget.
I never want to forget you,
but it’s getting hard as we move on,
like we never imagined we could.
Death seems to be everywhere on my mind,
Life is slipping with every breathe I take.
How much longer do I have?
They keep me up.
The silence creeps peaceful sleep away.
and not knowing haunts my mind.
Will I wake up in the morning,
Or will they find me where I laid me to sleep.
They keep me up.
Maybe these nights make us rethink our actions.
Make us stronger or kinder.
Use our un-promised time wiser.
Trying to light the way to find each other,
but we keep stumbling in the darkness of our hearts.
Dreams keep dragging us apart,
But I keep hoping for forever.
There are questions I could never ask,
but they always seem to linger in my head.
Can’t you stay a little longer?
The distance makes us weaker.
and I keep hoping for the day you stay.
Can’t I stay in your heart a little longer?
Cause only in my sleep our future looks bright.
I know I’ll be alright when you’re gone,
but I’m afraid my heart might never beat again like when you hold me.
So will you just hold me a little long,
and love me just a little longer.
I’m the monster I feared.
Lost my heart hiding from love.
Now I can’t seem to feel anything.
I’m dreaming to be who I used to be,
But I can’t seem to regain my faith.
Used to trust now I doubt everything I know.
The stars I used to wish upon,
keep self-destructing when I trust them most.
I fear my path cause I don’t want to be my own worst enemy.
Life seems to pass by pointlessly.
Nothing feels worth the time.
Hiding myself I lost my heart.
Now I’m the monster I feared,
My own worst enemy.
I could’ve been her,
but I was too young.
The way you look at her,
was how you used to look at me,
But I was too young to realize what I had.
The way your smile made everything better.
If I wasn’t too dumb when I was young,
I could’ve been the one to say I do to you.
Now our chances our over,
and I’m scared I’ll never find a love like you again.
I let you go,
and now I realize how wrong I was.
I wish you well,
and know if I ever get a second chance at true love,
I won’t let it go stupidly.
What do you do when you’re left behind,
By the one who swore you were the best part of them.
When your best isn’t good enough to make them stay.
They told you to leave them alone,
Too troubled and too low,
Still you gave them all you had.
Only to be left low and alone.
Pride shredded to pieces,
Your heart thrown in the sewers,
When you come home to an empty house.
One you left happy and full of love.
What do you do when the worst of you lets you go,
Without a single thought,
Goodbye without a single reason why.
Am I insane?
Cause I keep taking him back,
Hoping for a different ending.
Our love is like a yo-yo
He throws me away and pulls me back in.
My heart is like the yarn always getting knotted and breaking.
The yanking is wearing me down,
But I can’t seem to break away.
Throw me away for good,
Let me be,
But you always find a reason why.
Why it’s not your fault.
But it’s not all your fault.
Cause it takes two,
and how I wish it didn’t always end this way.
The yelling and screaming.
Oh, the fights never end.
I’m not sure how they ever begin,
But we always know how to bring out the worst.
Yet we call this love.
If your light burns too bright
and you need to rest.
My heart can be your shade,
as you set it aglow.
I’ll be the shadow that protects your innocence
I’ll bluff my way into your heart anyway I can.
Everyone else is talking about being obscure,
but with glossy hair,
and glazing eyes.
I understand why.
Cause we all feel dim at times.
With life’s uncertainty.
The future’s murky and moments are flashing by.
There’s something calming about the glint in your eyes,
and the way your smile radiates into me.
So let’s fake like we know where we stand,
as we make our way in this smokey path.
Put a brave front on,
and walk together till the end.